Always a wife

Wife defined as a help meet, lover, friend, home maker, peace to a storm, calm to a rage, problem solver, nurturer. December 13, 2017, I woke up a wife and cried myself to sleep as a widow.

January 2000, my late husband and I began to date as a result of courting for a short period of time. We dated until June 2007 and then we were married. We moved into our home September 2007 and life as we knew it sparked ups and downs and turnarounds. Just as with many things there was a lot of growing pains and then smooth sailing. So, as you can see I’ve always been a wife, even as a girlfriend, I had wife tendencies. What does that mean? I wanted him, I loved him, I cared for him, I sacrificed for him, I was comfortable with him, it was a natural connection, it was a decision for better or for worse.

I was sitting here yesterday and said to myself, “I’m still a wife.” I know that sounds crazy, but I have been called to marriage. Believe it or not, it isn’t only because I don’t want to burn. Hahaha, for those of you who listened to Pastor Orr’s message about singleness. I honestly have so much to share with a companion and there is so much I have to learn from a companion.

I am still a wife, I still have a lot to offer, I still have so much love to give. I still have so much nurturing and caring to do. I am still a wife and honestly after October 2019, I woke up and realized that I am worthy of another shot at sharing my world with someone truly special. I anticipate the moment that God gives me solely to my soul mate, yes soul mate. I believe that sprits connect. I believe in intuition and when you know, you just know. If you knew the beginning stages of how Cleo, my late husband and I connected then you’d understand what I mean. I will write about that at some point. I believe in divine appointments. So, yes, I am still a wife and I will continue to carry myself as such (minus the sex, lol).

The days seems long throughout this process. Sometimes it seems like an endless road. I am however focused on becoming a better me which helps me become a better wife. The race isn’t given to the swift, but to the one who endures until the end. Scripture says, “He that findeth a wife, findeth a good thing.” One thing I have never doubted is being a good thing. Wherever he may be, he will be a blessed man. So, again, yes, I am still a wife. I am delighted to be just that. So much love to you all!